October 27,2017

TGIF!!!  Been a busy bee this week!!  But I do have to say I've got a lot done.  I finally came out of my petty party funk.  I changed up the website to feature all three of them and show the price.  I also added cover photos for them.  I'm soo proud of myself!!  I've had two customers.  That's a start.  I'm not gonna even complain about it.  Another thing I changed was my IG username and profile pic.  It is now Mochahighness and has my website pic as the profile pic.  Oh! I also changed my bio.  So now it is showing my craft.

I've also got accounts on two live broadcasting apps.  Pocket Live and Live.me.  I leveled up on one and was able to start my own family.  I want it to be filled with literary minded people.  The name of it is Prodigious.  On the other app I have about 2050 fans and followers which is awesome!  So proud again.

So remember when I was telling you guys about the friend that was so disrespectful to me, and how a 16yr friendship was ended.  Well low and behold, today they called and asked could I do them a favor.  Like I was just going to be readily able to drop what I was doing to come to the rescue.  Maybe that was the problem?  I was always able to be accessible.  But today I really was busy and unable to get over there to help.  It really was sort of irresponsible the way it happened.  Like maybe it should have been planned better.  Any hoo, not my business.  I'm "not saying nothing" like "they" said.

Still awaiting that good news in the mail from SSI.  It can't get here fast enough!  My sister bought me a new CPap machine, and it can't get here fast enough!!  I can finally sleep without having to rig it together or worrying about the marks on my face.

Did some networking with a friend today.  It felt good trying to get out there and do something.  I still had to sit though!  And I got real sleepy.  But then again I've been up since 5am.  Yep!  Everyday I get up and I drive to pick the boys up from their dad's and bring them to school.  Then later that evening, I meet them at the bus stop and drive to drop them home.  I used to hang out at my friends, or help her run errands.  It was a good way for me  to catch a rest.  But now I have to drive all the way back to the spot when I have gas, or go to the library when I don't have gas.

Story of my life eh?  So next time you see me, I promise I'll have an actual topic!!  lol

Yes!!  I've finally completed somewhat my website!  Until I can get them published, I've decided to let the world get a taste of my work!  I mean it's the least I could do with all this "time" I've got to spare!  A lot has changed AGAIN since I last wrote. So here goes!!!

The first of August my bucket finally went empty!  I couldn't pay my rent nor could I pay the light bill that was due!  I went through a huge change.  Never have I ever been homeless, nor did I think I would be if I had to move out of my apartment.  So I had a number of places I just KNEW I could go.  I mean, I've always been a person to help an individual out.  I've always done my best to give when I had it, not expecting anything in return.  My health is failing, I can't work, and I still haven't been able to get SSI and Disability.  This 18 month wait was beginning to be just that.  So the Ex and I agreed to let the boys stay with him.  I would keep the child support, but help out with groceries since I got food stamps.  I knew I would be able to get them from him for school and back.  So that's what we did.  My youngest sister said I could come and stay with them for a while, but my second to the youngest sister was there too.  Well I get there, and then am told that I could only be there for two weeks.  Two weeks?  Yep!  Ok.  So two weeks came and I still had nowhere to go so I ended up sleeping in my car for a night.

It was the worst feeling EVER!!!  I could barely sleep.  I was parked in a parking lot of a Wal Mart.  Plenty of light, but I couldn't sleep.  My legs got really swollen because of the Congestive Heart Failure.  It was a mess.  So I ended up at a friend's house.  Someone I've known and had a close friendship with for over 15yrs.  But I couldn't stay there for long, because she was a Foster Parent and I didn't want her to lose her license.  Then Hurricane Harvey hit!  If I hadn't gotten evicted from that apartment and stayed there I would have lost everything!  The entire complex was flooded up to the second floors.  I would have lost all belongings including my car.  So maybe being evicted wasn't the worst thing?

I then reached out to acquaintances in a Facebook group I belonged to.  There I met someone, who knew someone, who knew someone that had a boarding home.  So after the flooding went down and things started to get back to normal as they could I had somewhere to lay my head.  This person never asked me for any money, nothing.  I had a room to myself.  There's three rooms in the house.  The other rooms were occupied by an older white woman and an older black man.  They both I believe are in their eighties.  I've been here for almost two months now.  Not where I want to be, but thank Heavenly Father it's not on the streets!!!

I now have a roommate.  The little old white lady had left, but has since returned.  Today is the second day we've shared a room.  Again it hasn't been bad and I won't complain not one bit.  I had planned to be in my own spot by October 1st, but that deadline has since passed.  I won't let it get me down though.  I've seen people lose their mind over the situation I'm in, so I consider myself very and extremely lucky.  I'm grateful I shall say.  I have to remind myself that God is intentional, and He's working it out for me!

This month that 16yr tight friendship I had came to an end.  Why?  I have no earthly idea!  I didn't do anything to this person.  They had been acting very ugly to me over the past three weeks and talked to me real rudely one day.  I tried to talk to them about it and they said "I don't care", about it to someone else.  So I respectfully walked away.  I've got too much going on in my life to worry about why someone is treating me so wrong when I know I've done nothing to them.  I believe that person thinks that they're the only person I've got to fall back on.  Well, I'm not sorry to say that that can be so far from the truth.  I've had people from other states blessing me out of nowhere.  He will make a way.  I just have to remain strong and prayerful.  

I've encountered quite a bit of opportunities of the late.  Hopefully this is a sign that things are about to change for me.  So I'll stay committed and strong towards the goals I've set out and the things I've got planned.  I did get paperwork that my courtdate will be scheduled soon for my SSI.  Yessss!!!  God knows I've been diligent and patiently waiting!

Ok.  Well I must get some rest.  I have to get up early in the morning and go get my boys and get them started on their day!!

Here's a little something I'll leave you with and don't forget to check out my website!!

http://mochahighness.weebly.com/


https://youtu.be/L3wKzyIN1yk


Love you guys!!!