October 27,2017

TGIF!!!  Been a busy bee this week!!  But I do have to say I've got a lot done.  I finally came out of my petty party funk.  I changed up the website to feature all three of them and show the price.  I also added cover photos for them.  I'm soo proud of myself!!  I've had two customers.  That's a start.  I'm not gonna even complain about it.  Another thing I changed was my IG username and profile pic.  It is now Mochahighness and has my website pic as the profile pic.  Oh! I also changed my bio.  So now it is showing my craft.

I've also got accounts on two live broadcasting apps.  Pocket Live and Live.me.  I leveled up on one and was able to start my own family.  I want it to be filled with literary minded people.  The name of it is Prodigious.  On the other app I have about 2050 fans and followers which is awesome!  So proud again.

So remember when I was telling you guys about the friend that was so disrespectful to me, and how a 16yr friendship was ended.  Well low and behold, today they called and asked could I do them a favor.  Like I was just going to be readily able to drop what I was doing to come to the rescue.  Maybe that was the problem?  I was always able to be accessible.  But today I really was busy and unable to get over there to help.  It really was sort of irresponsible the way it happened.  Like maybe it should have been planned better.  Any hoo, not my business.  I'm "not saying nothing" like "they" said.

Still awaiting that good news in the mail from SSI.  It can't get here fast enough!  My sister bought me a new CPap machine, and it can't get here fast enough!!  I can finally sleep without having to rig it together or worrying about the marks on my face.

Did some networking with a friend today.  It felt good trying to get out there and do something.  I still had to sit though!  And I got real sleepy.  But then again I've been up since 5am.  Yep!  Everyday I get up and I drive to pick the boys up from their dad's and bring them to school.  Then later that evening, I meet them at the bus stop and drive to drop them home.  I used to hang out at my friends, or help her run errands.  It was a good way for me  to catch a rest.  But now I have to drive all the way back to the spot when I have gas, or go to the library when I don't have gas.

Story of my life eh?  So next time you see me, I promise I'll have an actual topic!!  lol

Yes!!  I've finally completed somewhat my website!  Until I can get them published, I've decided to let the world get a taste of my work!  I mean it's the least I could do with all this "time" I've got to spare!  A lot has changed AGAIN since I last wrote. So here goes!!!

The first of August my bucket finally went empty!  I couldn't pay my rent nor could I pay the light bill that was due!  I went through a huge change.  Never have I ever been homeless, nor did I think I would be if I had to move out of my apartment.  So I had a number of places I just KNEW I could go.  I mean, I've always been a person to help an individual out.  I've always done my best to give when I had it, not expecting anything in return.  My health is failing, I can't work, and I still haven't been able to get SSI and Disability.  This 18 month wait was beginning to be just that.  So the Ex and I agreed to let the boys stay with him.  I would keep the child support, but help out with groceries since I got food stamps.  I knew I would be able to get them from him for school and back.  So that's what we did.  My youngest sister said I could come and stay with them for a while, but my second to the youngest sister was there too.  Well I get there, and then am told that I could only be there for two weeks.  Two weeks?  Yep!  Ok.  So two weeks came and I still had nowhere to go so I ended up sleeping in my car for a night.

It was the worst feeling EVER!!!  I could barely sleep.  I was parked in a parking lot of a Wal Mart.  Plenty of light, but I couldn't sleep.  My legs got really swollen because of the Congestive Heart Failure.  It was a mess.  So I ended up at a friend's house.  Someone I've known and had a close friendship with for over 15yrs.  But I couldn't stay there for long, because she was a Foster Parent and I didn't want her to lose her license.  Then Hurricane Harvey hit!  If I hadn't gotten evicted from that apartment and stayed there I would have lost everything!  The entire complex was flooded up to the second floors.  I would have lost all belongings including my car.  So maybe being evicted wasn't the worst thing?

I then reached out to acquaintances in a Facebook group I belonged to.  There I met someone, who knew someone, who knew someone that had a boarding home.  So after the flooding went down and things started to get back to normal as they could I had somewhere to lay my head.  This person never asked me for any money, nothing.  I had a room to myself.  There's three rooms in the house.  The other rooms were occupied by an older white woman and an older black man.  They both I believe are in their eighties.  I've been here for almost two months now.  Not where I want to be, but thank Heavenly Father it's not on the streets!!!

I now have a roommate.  The little old white lady had left, but has since returned.  Today is the second day we've shared a room.  Again it hasn't been bad and I won't complain not one bit.  I had planned to be in my own spot by October 1st, but that deadline has since passed.  I won't let it get me down though.  I've seen people lose their mind over the situation I'm in, so I consider myself very and extremely lucky.  I'm grateful I shall say.  I have to remind myself that God is intentional, and He's working it out for me!

This month that 16yr tight friendship I had came to an end.  Why?  I have no earthly idea!  I didn't do anything to this person.  They had been acting very ugly to me over the past three weeks and talked to me real rudely one day.  I tried to talk to them about it and they said "I don't care", about it to someone else.  So I respectfully walked away.  I've got too much going on in my life to worry about why someone is treating me so wrong when I know I've done nothing to them.  I believe that person thinks that they're the only person I've got to fall back on.  Well, I'm not sorry to say that that can be so far from the truth.  I've had people from other states blessing me out of nowhere.  He will make a way.  I just have to remain strong and prayerful.  

I've encountered quite a bit of opportunities of the late.  Hopefully this is a sign that things are about to change for me.  So I'll stay committed and strong towards the goals I've set out and the things I've got planned.  I did get paperwork that my courtdate will be scheduled soon for my SSI.  Yessss!!!  God knows I've been diligent and patiently waiting!

Ok.  Well I must get some rest.  I have to get up early in the morning and go get my boys and get them started on their day!!

Here's a little something I'll leave you with and don't forget to check out my website!!

http://mochahighness.weebly.com/


https://youtu.be/L3wKzyIN1yk


Love you guys!!!

August 21,2017  Monday

It's been a very long time since I've written on this page.  To be honest I had forgotten how to even get into it!  So it's been since September of 2014!!!  Omg, so much has transpired since then.  So I will fill you all in. 

In October of 2014 I had a heart attack!!  I thought I had a bad cold, went to the ER to get some relief, to later find out the next morn that I have Congestive Heart Failure.  I was given an angiogram and there was no blockage thank God, but I had soo much fluid on me.  I was in the hospital for almost two weeks.  I was then told to go to a sleep study, because I may have Sleep Apnea.  At that time the job I worked for had no insurance and  offered none.  So of course everything medical was placed on the back burner.  I tried my best to maintain my meds. In August of 2015 I had another heart attack, a mild one, caught it in time.  This time I was given a sleep study.  During that sleep study I stopped 225 times in a course of an 8 hour sleep.  I was only able to undergo 2hrs of the actual test, before they diagnosed me with Acute Obstructive Sleep Apnea.  My hear has been constantly going in to Tachycardia for more than 30 years.  I have always been like this since I could remember.  Unfortunately, undiagnosed and untreated has caused me to totally damage my heart. 

So I got a CPAP  machine.  My boss at the time had a friend who owned his own Sleep Clinic and gave me the machine for free.  I still have to have Palatel Surgery, but it has also been placed on the back burner as for right now.  That job closed in September of 2015.  I ended up moving in with my sister and found a great job in November of that same year.  I was there long enough to get medical benefits.  So I decided to go and see my cardiologist.  Who gave me an Echocardiogram, which led to a Thermal Stress Test, which led me to a LifeVest.  Yes this vest was to be worn so that in the event my heart stopped beating or became irregular it would shock everything back into order.  I wore it for only two days, because all my info was sent to an Electrophysiologist who in return stated the need for 24hr EMT care.  In simple terms, I needed a pacemaker if I wanted to continue to survive!  At this point I have become soo fatigued due to the condition of my heart.  I am barely able to walk a few feet, shower, stand up for 15 minutes at a time, and work for a few hours. 

I had the pacemaker installed in June of 2016.  I've just celebrated it's One Year Birthday!  I have also been unemployed for just as long.  I've used up all savings and any resources that can help with housing and the such.  So I for the first time EVER in my life, was evicted August of 2017!!!  My boys were able to go to their dad.  Thank God!!!  He is working with me, showing compassion for the first time.  What?!  Yes, I'm giving him Stamps in exchange for me keeping my child support.  Shit I need to survive yo!!!

So currently I am living out of my car.  I was able to stay two nights at a friends.  I was at my sister's for almost two weeks and they asked me to leave.  Hmm I'm not yet ready to discuss that.  It's been a very emotional past few days for me.  To top it all off, I posted on IG the first night I slept in my car.  I lied and told my mom and other sister I was going to be somewhere else so they wouldn't worry.  Well a family member went and told my sister and she in turn told my mom.  She then tried to text and go off on me.  But I'm sorry, first of all the fucking family member that ran and told, NEVER  commented on my post.  So don't go run and tell like you care bitch.  Cuz if you did, you would have asked me if I was okay, gave me some motivation, and helped me monetarily if you could.  But you lurked.  So on your way to tell my family who knows who else you told!!!  But I'm good.  I told my mom I've got too much on my plate to worry about what people are thinking. 

Today I'm at the library.  It's way too hot to try to do anything outside.  I really could use a nice bed to lay in and take a nap.  With CHF my body is extremely fatigued.  So I'm tired often!!!  My feet are super swollen.  If they get any bigger I will have to go to the ER, cuz that's not a good sign at all!!!  I've shared and shared my gofundme page as often as I possibly can.  But I have to stay as positive as possible.  Otherwise I could crumble to pieces.

If anyone is interested I will leave the link below along with my PayPal account as well!  Thanking you guys in advance!


https://www.gofundme.com/chf-relief-for-the-petrys


paypal.me/ValeriePetry

https://youtu.be/VH3f0ellNv8?list=PLbT0J9LBl_oA2657vjqwUTX1Z1VdCOwRk

WHERE'S THE LOVE DAMMIT!

I'm surrounded by many people.  Not necessarily by choice. But I have to admit that I'm a person people tend to be drawn to.  People divulge things with me that I've never intended to know.  But this isn't the purpose I'm writing today.  

Just in the past week, I've witnessed sisters disrespect each other.  I've seen granddaughters disrespect their Grandmothers.  Really?  What the hell have we evolved to?  We sit and wonder what the hell the world has come to, but forget to look ourselves in the mirror!

So I know this wonderful African American woman who is almost in her 80's.  She looks great and has aged really well.  She was born and raised in Alabama.  She has gone through and witnessed many things in life.  She's a very respectful woman and would give you her all if she felt it could benefit you.  I happen to meet her about thirteen years ago when my oldest was only four months old.  She is a foster parent, and has been one for the past fourteen years.  She has seen a LOT of trouble kids come through her home, and somehow she has been able to turn their lives around for the better!  She stays in prayer for both child and their families, with hopes that one day they all would be united. Family is very important to her.  

Well one day she was visiting a friend, and that friend got a phone call.  The friend saw that it was the lady's granddaughter and placed the line on speaker to include her in the conversation.  What she didn't know was that the granddaughter was going to began popping off at the mouth about her granddaughter.  It was very embarassing for the friend and very hurtful for the Granddaughter.  So hurtful she shared this with me.  She didn't want to go to her family, for fear of them jumping on the granddaughter.  She was commenting on all "those dirty, nasty, and bad kids".  She didn't want her children around them, and she didn't know why her grandmother had to be taking care of them etc. etc.  BUT she quick to come and dump her three kids off anyway!  

I would never EVER allow myself to think such things of my grandmother, yet repeat it to someone else behind her back.  My grandmother took care of me and my cousins everyday before and after school, while our parents worked.  We always came home to a huge dinner and snacks.  My mom has eight siblings so there were a lot of us grandkids at the end of the day!!!  But most of the time my siblings and I were the last to leave at night.  I remember every one of those nights my grandmother would get ready to get in bed and I would get a hot soapy towel and wash her feet for her.  I would fix her hair for her before she put her night cap on.  She didn't HAVE to ask us to do anything for her.  If she said she needed it done we did it, no questions asked!  She passed away when I was thirteen.  She was the only grandmother I knew.  

The two sisters and I work together.  Everyday it's something different.  One has a car, but can't pick or drop the other one to and from work and she only lives maybe eight blocks away.  "I rode the bus when I didn't have my car, why can't she?"  The other one is always embarassed because the other is soo "ghetto" in public and will publicly correct her.  The both of them will help a stranger before they help each other.  What the hell kind of shit is this?  There's no way "either" one of my three younger sisters will be needing something and I allow or look for someone else to do for them.  They disrespect and argue with each other at work.  But turn around and complain that nothing is going right for them.

I've had enough.  I have decided that I can no longer allow a granddaughter to continue to completely disrespect her grandmother.  I will not bash, call names, or pick a fight.  I am simply going to explain what I see and express how I think it's wrong.  I've already said my so with the sisters.  I have not held back nor have I sugar coated anything either.  Where I've seen wrong I have stated. But one thing I have also tried to do is show them how they need each other.  I've tried to motivate the two of them to try sit and have a rational conversation about what is causing the two of them to treat each other as so.  It's time to get rid of the "dysfunctional" frame of mind.  

We wonder why we're having a hard time with white society and the stronghold that it may have on us.  Why can't we get ahead, and we're still lacking? Hell we can't even take care of the things that are the most closest and most important to US!!! 

My parents are still alive but divorced.  I talk to my mom almost everyday, and my dad I talk to at least once a week.  I have three younger sisters whom I love and cherish very dearly.  You mess with one of us you have to deal with ALL of us.  We don't and won't play with anybody when it comes to our family. We pray and uplift one another, and if one has beef with the other we see to it that everyone hashes it out.  We don't like going to sleep being mad each other either, and you won't find us dishing out any dirty laundry if there is any!!!!  

If our families continue to fall apart I don't think we'll be able to build a better foundation amongst the rest of us.  Of course this was me on my soapbox.  Feel free to comment and I appreciate the time you've taken out as always to read my blog!

~Miyah~ 

The shit that's out there!!!

August 19,2013

Okay so I was planning on writing about a certain topic.  The vuh jay jay to be exact.  But I wanted to get some bonafied and true facts on my dear subject, besides what I wanted to write from my own knowledge.  So I'm googling and shit and I began to read the headlines of articles that began to show up when I mentioned the word "vagina".  I then decided to share them with you instead, because this shit was really a trip.

Article #1 :    This article was suggesting that the reason a woman was not getting her raise was because her tooty cat was uncleaned.

Article #2:     This article discussed the difference between shiny and hairy coochies vs.  unclean cunts, vaginas, and buttholes.

If I'm not mistaken, isn't a cunt and vagina the same thing?  Anyway moving right along.

Article #3:      This article actually explained what an unclean vagina smells like.  This man talked about how his wife vagina was smelly and leaked a strange fluid, but he still ate it up!!!

Article #4:       Unclean vagina smell vs. natural vagina smell

Article#5:        This one's a trip.  This chic said her vagina has a foul odor but she loves it and she likes to touch herself so she can smell it all day. Is this normal? What the hell?  Hell naw that ain't normal!!!

and last but not least.....

Vagina's have been used as an intriguing but stupid murder weapons!!!

This lady in Australia put poison on her coochie and then had her husband go down on her.  Good thing that fool recognized her tooty didn't have it's usual smell and took her to the hospital.  Then in Africa there is this condom called Rape-AXE.  This condom worn by women, has little barbs on it!! Yes teeth!!  So when dude try to take advantage these little barbs dig in to the penis and gives excruciating pain!!!  Yea, so homeboys if you're traveling abroad remember this!!!

August 12, 2013

Yes I have been gone for a WHILE!!  But I'm back!!!  So I have friends.  Some of them are closer than others.  I have skinny friends, friends who have a lot of ass, some who have no ass, and some just like me BBW.  Never have we, my friends and I, ever had to compete for a man's attention.  If a male ever decided to try to put us in that situation he would have to get ghost.  So recently a male tried to do so.  My friend being thin and curvaceous, and me of course with my beautifully plump self!  So this attractive " little" dog who thinks he has a big bite, decides he is gonna play both sides right?  Little did he know that she and I already peeped game and decided to play as we please.  Meanwhile posted up on the under is "dis female", who think she knows ALL  the tricks to the game, when really she just TIRED and need to give up the GHOST.  She decides to persaude "little" doggie to go with my friend.  One of the reasons was because I'm BEAUTIFULLY PLUMPED!!!!  So ol boy must like some meat on his bones, because it didn't work.  So "dis female" decided to play my friend against me......didn't work.  Hence, tonight's blog.

Those who don't know me, I'm 4'11' and 224lbs..  I have a tummy, I have ass, I have big thighs and arms!! Regardless of my size and proportion, I am very comfortable in my skin.  I dress to the tee and can rock with and for any occasion.  So yeah "dis female" that's why you trippin' over something that doesn't concern you!!!  I go out and get dirty playing sports with my kids.  I do the damn thing, okay?  My status is such, because it's how I like it.

Having said that, please get the notion that us BBW's will accept "any" thing that is offered to us.  We are very aware that there are intelligent, successful, skinny,average, athletic, and big guys that adore and PREFER us big gals.  So you're athletically built, handsome, and married.  Because you attempt to give us the time of day we're supposed to feel special?  We should be honored that someone as such gives us the time we should feel special?  Ha!!  Your notions are ill-given, egotistical, and ignorant.  We are not "willie foo foo"!!

For those of you out there who think that a slim chic's body can overkill a BBW
, baby think twice!  No for real think a third time now!  No dissin' the slim chic's but there are PERKS one can get from us BIG BEAUTIFUL WOMEN!!!  Not all men are looking for trophies or an ass that is stuck up in the air constantly.  There are men who are out there who want to play with a woman they know won't and can't break!  That's no fun for them!  They want some cushion for the pushin' sweetie!  He wants more than a handfull....I know you quiet because you receiving this teaching!  Yes we have our flaws too, but we're also sweet,compassionate, intelligent, sassy,inventive, trustworthy, lovable, and KISSABLE!!!  

Homeboys, if you find yourself dreaming of that Beautiful Bodacious woman around the way, STOP denying yourself!! Go for it!  Best decision you'll make in a lifetime.  Us big chicks love and play just as hard as the rest of them.

Homegirl, before you go try to dissuade a guy from being interested in a BBW, because your homegirl is a petite chick or you're a petite chick, remember this.....he don't want that chick, he wants a BBW baby! Deal with it!  Accept it! Be careful......

Laugh!!!

I'm out...POW POW POW........

What Are YOU Waiting On?

August 1, 2013

Dreams....aspirations towards the future
       -to contemplate the possibilities of doing something or that something might be the          case....
     - the stuff that you think about
     - a series of thoughts ,images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep

We all have them.  At some point in life we do.  As a kid we've dreamt of who we were going to marry, what house we were going to live in, and what our careers would be.  For some people these dreams became a reality which is awesome!  For others reality sinks in, and those aspirations become lost, blown in the wind, and sadly maybe even stolen.  

I remember dreaming about being being a doctor!  I had the hospital picked out, the kind of car I would drive(Beamed Baby 7.5!), how many children I was going to have, and the age I would retire at!  I never became a doctor, but I sure as hell feel like one with every skinned knee, bump, bruise, or fever my children get!  So yeah I'm a doctor for life now!! 

I remember my sister after me dreamt of being Whitney Houston!  Now she was barely five but baby Whitney was her aspiration! LAWD. But it was cute..laughing.  I remember around age 9, my mom and dad bought me my first boombox.  I would bring that thing everywhere, especially to my Momo's house.  All my cousins would be there everyday.  Our dream was to be like the singing group The JETS!  And everyday we would be out in the middle of the country on my grandparents property singing every song by the Jets.  We would coordinate dance moves and all.  Neither one of us can sing, but we had fun, we bonded, and we inspired one another.

Me and my sister after me would play "Girl".  Hehehe. I don't know why we called it that, but we would dress up, comb our own hair, and put on our mom's heels!  We would take our children(baby dolls) and bring them to day care, and we would go to work(at the office)!  She would be typing away on her computer(a stack  of books) and I would be doing the filing!  I would be writing stories and poetry instead!  That was our thing though and I loved it. 

Dreams never leave you.  Once they're thought of they're embedded in your being.  To pull them out and take the necessary steps to achieve and fulfilling them is solely up to you.  You don't like the way life is going, go to that place you've stowed away those dreams and pull them out!  Let them be the motivation you need to make that change in life you so desire.

I've always wanted to write.  I enjoy this imagination of mine!  Writing is therapeutic for me.  I can say I've always done it well.  When I got married and started having children, I placed it on the back burner.  For almost 10yrs!!!  My inner self was so disappointed with me, and one day she said ENOUGH!  GET YOUR ASS BACK IN THE GAME!  So here I am.  One step at a time.  

So what dream are you sitting on?  Who's taken it away, and what do YOU intend to do about it?  What excuses are you using?  Get rid of them!  Do you want it bad enough?  I hope you do!  Find your mono, look up your resources, dust off those cobwebs, and most of all look Fear and Defeat in the eye and tell it to kiss it where the sun don't shine!!!!  To give up is just not a choice for me anymore.....WHAT ABOUT YOU?

If you don't build YOUR dream
       Someone will hire you to build THEIRS.
                                         - Tony Haskins


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